I kind of relate to mc

(Virtual hug (づ￣ ³￣)づ) I'll hug you tight if I could.

That sucks to hear. It sucks to have a shitty father who can't act like a grown up.
It's okay to express the way that you are feeling. It sucks, yeah but you can't let that bring YOU down.
Stay strong! I believe in you! You shouldn't let your father's appearance affect you either. You are unique and beautiful in your own way!
You are your own person!! You have the power to define yourself on your own terms, separate from your father's influence.
You got this.

I wonder why some parents thinks like that when my mother starts I tell I didn't ask to be here so it's her responsibility for her actions

sending you a virtual hug, i hope things will get better for you someday, please take care...

I'm in the same situation, my mom is a narcissistic and all our (me and siblings) achievements in life should be credited to her. If people's praise and attention is not focus to her, she'll make malicious and exaggerated rumors to a person who she can't control that other people and sometimes a total stranger really believed her rumors. My father was doormat enabler to her toxic behaviour, absolutely didn't defend us and always say to be a bigger and mature person. Me, my siblings and my grandma (father side) were her victims. We decided to have no contact to them because she always said that all the things she gave us, we should return it all at once we got a job because that's what Asian children do to their parents. When she doesn't received what she wants or can't control our life (job choice, lifestyle, personal beliefs, and love life) the way she wanted, she'll resort to self h**m in front of us to traumatize and guilt trip us. So yeah we decided to protect our mental health, and all our relatives called us ungrateful without asking our side of the story. Her last word before we leave her house she said to us " The reason why me and my siblings are poor because of you guys. I regret giving birth and I shouldn't let your father got me pregnant". Like we don't have a fucking choice to born and be the reason why your your parents and siblings are poor . Since I was young, my mom's relative always blamed us as the main reason for them being poor. It hits me really bad when my actual said it us everyday when all finished our bachelor degree. Sorry for a long reply lol, I just wanna share it and vent out.