The fact he was denying his feelings because of his own self, not that it's internalized homophobia because he has nooooo issue having sex with sanho nor is it a family issue because the brother seems overjoyed that he """"came to terms with his feelings"""... It's his own self. He might've disguised his feelings for disgust, but the fact he talks so shittily about sanho when he's not around to everyone else really shows you how little respect he has for him.
Sanho knows this, that's why he's been unwilling to be with tak. He can't even start having true feelings for tak with the way he is right now, in a lot of senses Sanho is 10x more emotionally mature than tak who won't even be honest with himself.
Exactly imagine knowing Someone for wo years and saying this shit behind their back while having sex with them this is like all time low Ritz
It's like ripping someone's heart out. You care about them, you've been friends with them for years and cared enough about them to not drop them after them pretty much forcing you to have sex with them then boom all of this. Tak doesn't deserve Sanho at all
The fact he was denying his feelings because of his own self, not that it's internalized homophobia because he has nooooo issue having sex with sanho nor is it a family issue because the brother seems overjoyed that he """"came to terms with his feelings"""... It's his own self. He might've disguised his feelings for disgust, but the fact he talks so shittily about sanho when he's not around to everyone else really shows you how little respect he has for him.
Sanho knows this, that's why he's been unwilling to be with tak. He can't even start having true feelings for tak with the way he is right now, in a lot of senses Sanho is 10x more emotionally mature than tak who won't even be honest with himself.