
the " heat " part is probably just caps trying to rationalize and downplaying the grapes, like he did before, that it felt good but that his elite body was just built like that, that anyone would make him feel that way and that he started to feel he was only a sack of meat but he didn't care ... TwT
I don't think he wants to acknowledge he is a victim. He knows he is being graped but because his body reacts he is downplaying it so he can feel he has control over the situation.
And we know how he hated how his body was sensitivity and how pridefull he was.
After the first time he was graped he almost off himself but because of Jin's letter he wants to be strong and to not let all this get to him so he is downplaying what happens to him, but his mental is deteriorating and being self hating ...
‘youre pregnant’ HOW THE FUCK??? WHY THE FUCK??? WHY???
WHY ARE YOU BLUSHING????
‘i was in heat to be fair.’ YOU WERE IN HEAT???
‘Even jin would find me disgusting’ nah bby girl hed most likely still like you hes WHIPPED
‘you are my possession’ and youve never felt the touch of a woman gO AWAY
WHY ARE YOU KISSING HIM???? HATE SEX??? WHY????
now hes blushin again what the fuck
you find him disgusting but like his dick huh? -_-
‘you shit head’ what took ya so long to get to that conclusion? :/
oh it was jin. hi jin!