Recss

I've tried to find smth similar too but couldn't. The closest I've found is probably "what it means to be you"

Okk tyy

There was the time when I want you to be dead

But near the ending MC grew some backbone unlike my beloved oppressor

Tyyy

I can't find it can you link it?

https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/there_were_times_when_i_wished_you_were_dead/

Tyy