not seme asking why is the uke scared loll after al those violence and abuse . i remembe...

ikr? my dad is like this too

That’s traumatic, how do you read a story like this if you’ve gone through something similar?

Omg....thats horrable...

It's a bit complicated, But I've been doing this since I was a child, I used to only read stories similar to what I'm going through. I don't know why I do this, but it's a habit I have. i think maybe It's some kind of coping mechanism? i don't like doing it but i just do.

Yes it is

If you're in America talk to someone from your life your voice, the crisis text line, etc. for other healthy coping mechanism. Not saying to still but just try something different every now and then.

Talk to me

thank you! I'm not from America, and I don't really like talking about what I'm going through to others. It makes me feel kinda.. pathetic?

Shira yuki..i acknowledge that sharing what u are going through makes u relive the moments u want to forget..and that kinda make one to feel pathetic. I too went through something..and i am not couragious enough to say it...its a trauma now i think.But mine was a onetime incident...because i have a happy family...n this has pushed that incident into last bunker of my mind ...but still when i remember ...i feel so sad and soiled... i just want to erase it like it never happened.
But yours family is toxic...its not a onetime thing like it was with me..u need to run if its too much. If u are from west ...find a side hussel and move out . Hope u r not a teenager...but if u r ...share ur prob with ur mom or someone adult u can trust but plz get some help otherwise...ur future might suffer...such incident leave a imprint on mind..in a bad bad way.find a safe environment where u can heal...like ur granny, close friend, anyone. Friend i just wish..if i may be blunt..that no one is sexually assaulting u. Physical beating can be bearable to some extent but sexual assault drains ur self esteem....in latter case just plz seek urgent help. N i am sory if in this comment i hurt ur feelings in any way...i just intend to help u

aww thank you!! You're really so sweat. I wish the adults in my area were that nice too, My mother already knows but she can't do anything so she ignores it, and all my relatives and grandparents died a long time ago. I don't have any adult who can help me. I already talked to many adults but they didn't do anything other than "praying to the god." I don't have enough evidence to even report him. In my country, it is very difficult for me to escape from home.let alone find a safe place, I'm from the east, unfortunately, and the law here doesn't protect me at all, I have terrible psychological problems,and ED, and really serious health problems, and I realize that my situation is bad and my future is at stake, but I don't think I will live for a really long time, but it's okay. I've adapted to the idea and I'm just here wasting my time. thank you for trying to help me tho! and i'm sorry.

U r making me cry. Listen if u r a boy...hang in there...u r gonna grow up strong n then beat his ass...n if u r a girl...my sister..it would be hard for u. I am also from east..so i know
There is only one way ...which can help u...n that is to study well and stand on ur own feet.....it might seem shallow now...but concentrate on studies...n whenever u wanna talk n need someone ....think of me as a big sister n dm me on my acc here..u r always always very welcome...n ...just hang in there. Lots of hugs to u and may God give u courage and long long life....and a strong ass job when u grow up.

i'm a trans boy, But no one knows that here, so in everyone's eyes I'm a girl, so I know that I will face a hard time. I try to study, but the problem is that everything affects my My focus and I face difficulty in studying no matter how hard I try, but I'm still trying anyway. thank you for everything sis!