YES OMG. The trying to convince himself he doesnt need it but it's the only thing he ever wanted Mioro
living with that feeling on daily basis ,its kinda suffocating ngl ...being a romantic who yearns for deep bonds with ppl but also has a deep fear of relationships and commitment, not just romantic rlly even platonic
this part of being a person who preaches about solitude and how relationships and love are irrational but also wanting a love so deep just like the ones in fiction is SOOOO REAL AGH...u just feel like a hypocrite
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/kabukicho_bad_trip_ikeda_to_rio/uu/to_chapter-5/pg-11/