I'm glad to know I'm still normal, there are people like me who enjoys reading painful stories. I want it heart wrenching, painful and can almost cause me heart attack. Stories that can me me ugly crying haha. I also posted looking for recos under Into the rose garden's comment section but the recos they gave me are the ones I finished reading already.
I was like this before. I love the feeling of my heart wrenching in pain — like I'm the who's heartbroken, but after I read the 10 Years That I Love You The Most (which I forget what year), I stopped reading tragic stories. It leaves a really painful after taste. Even now when I some painful raws of that manhwa, I couldn't help to tear up (but perhaps I'm just being emotional lol).

Guyss can you recommend me some bl where the uke died