bro i meant to like im sorry, my thumb is too big
haha you’re fine! no worries
This! Plus Jiwon has social anxiety and can be overly defensive, too as seen in the manhwa. It's not that hard to understand him so I don't understand the hate he's getting for just saying that.
As someone who has severe anxiety and with trauma his reasoning makes sm sense to me so I wasn’t shocked he said such a thing. It’s more realistic to say than what people think.
And I find it very relatable which means it’s actually realistic!
thank you for the info! do you have a link to the novel?
Yeah as someone with a low self esteem and anxiety what you said is true. It's really hard to control what you say sometimes.
Yuo can zoom on the like (=・ω・=)
i’m so sorry, i don’t feel comfortable sharing it because of the TLer’s policies ^^;; you should be able to locate it easily enough by looking up ballboy tactics on novelupdates & navigating from there, though! i do recommend it, i liked the novel a lot more than i was expecting to. i think it showcases jiwon’s perspective (and the ups and downs of getting a look into his perception of things) quite well (better than the manhwa does so far imo because you get really, really into jiwon’s head and see his thought processes laid out), & jungwoo actually impressed me as a ML because of the effort he puts into trying to communicate things clearly a lot of the time.
it’s SOOO hard sometimes, self perception & history with mental illness and trauma really warps how you handle things! it doesn’t always justify actions, but it certainly explains them, and i think it’s really important to keep this in mind for characters jiwon because he has a LOT going on internally.
like he does fumble quite badly sometimes (there’s one moment in the novel that had me really thinking “wow, he’s lucky he has jungwoo because i don’t think many people would have tolerated that”) but i can’t help but look at him sympathetically because of the why he does it & i wanted to make sure more people were aware of that why
Yeah I think in Jiwon's case he needs professional help it doesn't show on the outside but he's pretty much in need not only of someone who understands him. Some people are ignorant and mental health awareness should be explained even in this site's comment section.
I feel like this might help provide some clarity re: why he acts the way he does b/c it’s probably not going to come up for a While (iirc it’s not until a good chunk way through the novel it comes up) and… well……… his anxiety + tendencies to self sabotage by overdoing it aren’t going away anytime soon and are. Quite Bad at times ^^;; abuse mention for this btw
tldr he was physically and emotionally abused by his first gymnastics coach, who would hit him when he didn’t get things right + created a dependence on him by initially telling jiwon like oh you’re my pride and joy oh you’re only one i have hopes for when he first took him on as a student. it got so bad that when another student caught wind of the situation & reported it to his parents, who called the authorities, jiwon was devastated his coach was being taken away from him. his tendencies to immediately give up and his constant anxiety + self sabotaging (ex. overshooting to sound homophobic to cover up his being gay) are a direct result from this.
like i said it doesn’t go away anytime soon and he’s honestly kind of lucky to have a partner like jungwoo who has the patience of a saint (despite his own nerves being very frayed by everything) and is willing to stand by him and work things through because his on-impulse self sabotage gets really Really bad sometimes, so i want to make it known like Hey Here’s The Context bc it will probably help with understanding him and the why he acts so anxiously going forward ╮(￣▽￣)╭