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I think for Nanjo-jshi, being a self-professed straight guy who fell for a twink is still somewhat acceptable? Vs falling for a hunk! Like for a closeted gay, justifying to himself like okay the twink is slightly how a girl would be in a relationship - short, lean, soft, adorable? But A HUNK? He's clearly not averse to his presence, but there is no self awareness until now.
okay, now that the translation is here, its even more obvious that monkyeon has some feeling for nanjo, but i wouldn't say love nor passion.. there's just something getting born, and he himself is afraid because his attraction to him is lasting longer that it usually does (apparently). he is a little twisted, yes, but i don't think he is evil, definitely not a red/black flag.
nanjo... his character is so interesting to me. he's definitely a devoted one, or maybe just really stubborn, or maybe his pride is his greatest prize, because tell me why is he doing all this for that twink? why put himself in this position? he's either really naive/innocent or he just doesn't want to recognize that he's getting played by the twink. at least monkyeon is honest with his intentions, and that's why i like (also why many are hating him).
anyways this is going to be a hell of a good ride