WAHHHHH.

I’M BEHIND BC WORK WAS BUSY LAST WEEK & I’VE BEEN SICK oh my god i have four chapters to review now. fake pittosporum commentary fan guy

god they’re so sweet. forever and always that really is just the first thing i have to say. they’re so sweet. they care about each other and about trying to figure out how to understand each other & understand their approach to their relationship so so much. odajima thanking god for getting to come here with yano… yano wanting to figure out how to express how much he loves odajima in words… god they’re so sweet.

ODAJIMA’S FEAR OF BUGS FROM CH6 ALSO LOLLLLL i know it’s played for a silly little moment but i also like how it is - as everything about his behaviour is - reminder that he’s just a teenager. seeing him freak out at a cicada like that shows he’s healed enough to be able to express himself and his fear and maybe it’s not that deep but to ME it is. also him talking to yano’s dad and feeling guilty for being thanked because to him his motives for helping out yano - from the notebook to getting him to come home - were selfish (and what he described in 2nd leaf as ‘gross’) only to be told that no matter his motives, he still helped someone. he really needed to hear that because even with all of the progress he’s made - and what progress he has - he’s still burdened by the idea of dragging yano down with his own selfish whims, from the day they became roommates to now.

also yano taking odajima firefly-viewing on a date to his family’s spot which was also his parents’ date spot and where his dad PROPOSED…. that’s so intimate. kids you’re only 16 you have a lot of time to go before then but please….. please vol5, 6, whatever timeskip volume where they’re still going strong as adults and get engaged in this spot. sensei please. Sensei

anyways the way yano talks about how he’s not sure if he made the right choice pursuing their high school but he’s still glad he did because he got to meet odajima. wanting to thank him for everything only for odajima to break down because he still feels so, so selfish when it’s normal for him to want to do things for his boyfriend because he wants to stay by his side, and yano telling him outright he’s not sure if he can because he’s not sure what he wants to do but he still wants odajima to know how much he cares about him!!! AND HIS BRINGING UP WHAT HE SAID IN 2ND LEAF…. he didn’t approach their relationship with halfhearted feelings and he MEANT it. and the exchange of first names and i love yous. aaaaaugh wehhhh wahhh sniffle. god they’re SOOO sweet i can’t wait for 4th leaf. how many leaves do pittosporum stems bear because i will keep clapping and cheering if we end up with 10 volumes or something at this rate i need these two to be happy forever