help!!!

hi guys I’m looking for this bl manhwa that I lost track off and have been looking for an hour

So basically from what I recall is that it’s set in the 1990’s? The uke ran away from Russia and he’s a famous dancer or theatrical performer and the mc has blonde hair and spots him in a bar? I think he’s rich because later on the story around chapter 20 they get together but the uke genueily goes insane and wants to escape out of their little house. He does and the ML goes to war and forgets his memories?? Then the uke suddenly adopts a baby from this mother who’s dying and he’s looking for the ML again for some reason;;; after the war the ML is well known for being kinda like the leader for the war???? help then it’s revealed that the ML never lost his memories he just wants to forge the uke and I js stopped reading from there I couldn’t take it anymore;;; sorry if that summary was all over the place but that’s how I remembered how it went