
I hope u r doin gud naw....
We can understand yuh .... N that's make it sadder..... My baby, I lost her to accident n it was soo painful, she was too young to die, my btfl baby died just like dat on a heavy rainy day by car, she loved taking walk n I was too young to go out with her as I got struck with homeworks, but I was so scared smth might happen to her that I went out.... Just to c her die Infront of me... N I still can't forgive myself or that car driver

i understand how you feel, my dog passed in early june.
know that the fact your cat passed in your arms means he trusted you a lot. strays tend to hide when they’re about to pass away, as an instinct to protect themselves. the fact you were able to hold him until his last moment means he felt safe and protected with you with him. do not blame yourself. sometimes it is just time for them to pass on.
whether you believe in religion or not, you will be with him again. it could be in heaven, reincarnation, or even just the both of you becoming one with the earth. bonds cannot be broken by death.
Dang I cried so hard when I read the buster eps. I recently lost a cat which is my only source to keep on surviving. Life has been hard and my cat is the reason I could still live comfortably. Dang I still remember the time he's been lying sick on my bed and catching his breath. I've done everything and even asked all of my friends so I can borrow money for the vet. But just after I came back with the money. He just died in my arms....I still blamed myself for that loss. This is the first time I've ever talk about my cat dying and my experience with it. I can't open it up to anyone else cause I just don't want them to see me like this. However, it has been very hard. Reading Buster's dialogue made me remind of my sweet baby. I hope I was at least a good owner for him. :((( I guess that's why I had 5he sudden urge to binge read this manhwa. Hahahaha to also think that Shadow who has a similar name with my cat and because he was also orginally a black stray cat. I remembered the time where I was being still scratched by him because I was so worried about him since in my place. Black cat is considered unlucky. I hope my baby is running on a bright place. I still couldn't accept that I'll go home now without someone waiting for me. But I'm glad that he's not in pain any more. The moment he died I just knew. He waited for me. Thank you for staying strong my shadow.