
Hello dear
I can feel your suffering. Life is so sad and hard. I'm not feeling happy even though I don't have these problems you said.
I know how can loneliness and getting disapointed of your beloved ones feel. How it feels when you can't help your loved one in pain.
Honey I do not know wether there is any God or not, yet accept this from me; don't live in hope he'll help you. Cause the time will never come.
And the last thing is, please take care of yourself. Be patient with yourself. This body of yours and your soul are the only true things that care for you. Be kind to your self.
Happy times may be waiting not too far

Life isn’t always easy it’s a thing we all have to learn to stay resilient, times are tough but perhaps it’s Gods plan that’s waiting for you, for now confined in loved ones tell them your hurt and together support each other
, not because it’s a burden but because you yourself have to learn that your not by yourself. All difficulties end depending on you, if you let yourself be negative or silent then yes buts it’s only in your confidence can you regain strength again to move on even when things aren’t going in a positive light. I’m sorry you feel that way but I hope you can regain strength to combat these challenges in life, and remember you’re not alone and nethier should you burden yourself alone. We are people, we need to be heard to not be alone. I bless you with all the love and strength to continue on your journey and remember your mindset is what dictates your life, with love take care and hope all good wonderful things come to you.

You are not alone and you are cared for, because I care for you.
It might feel like you’re stuck alone in a dark cold tunnel. But I hope that you can see a glimpse of light at the end of this tunnel. That you can see the world and the life that awaits you beyond the tunnel. That you can see the sky, the trees, the sun. I Hope you have the courage to believe that you can shape your narrative and your story.
I suggest you read the book “into the magic shop” by James R Doty, a kid who grew up in a poor environment but that became a reputable neurosurgeon. He attributed his success to visualization, a tool that allowed him to make his dreams come true. I have took some lessons and applied them to my own life, and neuroplasticity, the capacity to rewire your brain, can be a game changer.
I’ll share one of my favourite quote from the book :
“I am worthy. I am loved. I am cared for. I care for others. I choose only good for myself. I choose only good for others. I love myself. I love others. I open my heart. My heart is open.”
I Hope that you can repeat this affirmation to yourself, because you deserve to be love and cared for. And I hope you believe in yourself.
And I hope that many paths open up to you

Wish i could hug you, an make things better, i'll send love and internet hugs since we are far.....EVERYONE and i mean everyone has questioned their existance or role in this world at one point in their life your are not alone..sometimes things take a little longer so we can cherish it more.....you will get a job an unexpected one that will surpass all your expectation, you and your bf....when life is lifing you gotta look at yourself in the mirrorr and let the universe know you are great you are loved you are eternal and successful, everthing i need shall be provided i am healhty i am strong and i can do all things....

Thank you all so much for your sweet messages, I appreciate yall. It really helped to look at things a little differently reading your messages and I just took some days just focusing on my healing and mental health, I am also just thankful that I am healing well and can start doing a lot of things I couldn’t after the OP and so thankful that my mom came down to take care of me.
I definitely not giving up on life, never will and will just keep being strong and pushing forward!!
#You don’t really have to read#
I’ve just been overwhelmed by a lot of emotions and have been crying for the last few minutes because I just feel like nothing I do is ever good enough. Work, relationship, friendships you name it. I’m one person that believes in God and prayer but I have been feeling like God turns a blind eye a lot on so many things in my life, I don’t even know what I’m doing wrong. I went to school but can’t even secure a job let alone interviews when I apply for one, I do have experience in different fields but I guess that doesn’t matter! I recently just had a myomectomy just a couple of days ago and the healing phase really just hit me when I realized that people that are supposed to be my family and care for me can’t be bothered that much with me… so it’s been a rough couple of days for me emotionally.
I’m in a long distance relationship and my boyfriend is someone that has had a rough upbringing, went through so much struggles most of his twenties but just when he started thinking things are starting to change for the better for him, everything just goes to shit. He’s really depressed because work is not going well(he even be let go any moment), he need to find a new place to stay on short notice and has no one to rely on whatsoever. All these things just had me lose it because we are such good people but live has really not been good to us and we don’t know what we are doing wrong. I was even crying to my sister some time ago because we both felt like we were just stuck in circle of never ending suffering with no end.
Anyway I just wanted to vent to strangers out there because I can’t talk to my family about most of the things that I’m feeling.