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Thanks for all the reply, I don't plan on acting upon it but there are times that it's too tempting tho that it scares me. I have been looking for professional help in a long time but have always been put off my priority because of how expensive it is.
Anyways, thank you guys for validating my feelings I just need to make sure I wasn't making this up. My head feels clouded most of the times too. So I hope I can make it before I can finally get help.
I fantasize h@nging myself. Idk if my mental health is declining or not (it's probably is) but I have episodes where I go crazy and start laughing or crying for no reason it's driving me insane