Hi sorry for the sudden reply and I genuinely want to ask what kind of expectations did you have for McQueen that his character was ruined for you? (I mean im not sure if youve read the part where Ryan said that mcqueen was deluding himself into thinking that the porn he did was art)
Sorry just asking xD cause i felt like the author was really trying to tell us that mcqueen was deluding himself (well at least before the so called redemption phase) welp im not sure if you get what im trying to ask (just ignore this if its too confusing!)
I took my time understanding your comment so I could reply properly! I hope this makes sense!
I went in with absolutely no expectations. That's the 'mentality' I always get into new stuff with, so that I can discover the story and characters only in the way the author wanted them to be.
That being said, after reading over half of the story, I thought he (mcqueen, since you were more interested in him) was interesting enough and I thought the story would bring him into a deeper, more psychological and complex character. Maybe by the end he was but he just really threw me off at chapter 50-ish. I guess his character just went off track in my opinion and I couldn't stand Ed not having a spine and mcqueen not being held accountable. Not to mention Chang being included like nothing happened when I thought we'd have a cute side couple despite him (chang) being a temperental brat lmao.
I have to say I dropped it after Chang raped Ed. Like. It felt out of character and I just really didn't even want to see Ed and McQueen get back together. Absolutely not shade to the author or the amazing translation team and uploaders. I just don't think this was for me. (and I know not everything is catered to everyone)
But still, hearing everyone talk about how amazing this is made my expectations too high, I suppose. If you're looking for a sweet love story.. I don't think this will hit that box for you, either. (Don't get me wrong, I love physiologist bls.. this was just an actual pimp trying to be repainted as a good guy. Also McQueen making a movie with Ryan reenacting a real-life rape and objectifying it truly ruined his character for me.)