Sorry but actually a lot of readers are complaining about mc behavior to ml and how stupid and inconsiderate to someone without memories
I think that's just me. I've been ranting about it almost every chapter and getting a lot of pushback. Only getting push back actually.
It’s actually not. A lot of people have been saying that the mc was wrong to rush things and that the esper went through something traumatic 3 times in quick succession. The only push back we gave is when people said it was SA during that time period when cha kwonwoo was just kwonwoo.
It undoubtedly was rape. Technically.
If it's rape to have sex with someone when they're blacked out due to drugs or alcohol that it's also rape to have sex with somebody when they're blacked out due to mental illness. Technically.
Technically is the keyword here because ultimately the victim gets to decide if they were raped or not. Plenty of people enjoy getting drunk and having sex with their partners. Plenty of people will get blackout drunk, have sex with their partners, and be totally cool with it.
That doesn't mean you aren't allowed to feel traumatized and then move past it. The esper clearly felt traumatized about the physical escalation of their relationship but he chose to move past it because he wanted the relationship. You can see him still working through it in this chapter.
Traumatised yes but don’t say it’s SA. Having an intimate relationship with someone and then getting amnesia and forgetting about it doesn’t make it SA. I am a survivor, I would know. He can feel traumatised and that’s 100% valid. It IS traumatic to find out what happened during a time period you can’t remember especially when the you of right now wouldn’t have made the same choices but that doesn’t negate the fact that the you of back then DID make those choices and both of them ARE YOU! This isn’t the case of external factors impacting his ability to make a coherent decision. This isn’t a drunken mistake or a drugged assault. This is two adults actively choosing to get into a romantic and sexual relationship with each other after much deliberation. In fact, the guide said no multiple times on the basis of being scared of what might happen if the og esper came back. The regressed esper swore to him it wouldn’t happen and had to do it multiple times before the guide accepted it. If anyone was coerced into a relationship, it’s the guide who was ruthlessly pursued by who is essentially his boss. No one bat an eyelid about that but all of a sudden, yall are saints and claim the guide is a sinner? This is traumatic for the guide too. Imagine going to bed with your lover who you view as a husband only to wake up to that same lover choking you out and trying to kill you. Not once but twice. Imagine finding out that your lover has no recollection of you and wants you to move out and break your soul bond to them. Imagine that same lover clinging onto you after telling you the most devastating thing a lover can say to you: “I don’t want to even look at you”. The esper isn’t the only victim here and if you haven’t noticed, this is no one’s fault and the og esper himself on multiple occasions has said that that body and mind that made those decisions during that “blackout period” are the same body and mind he has currently and prior to that “blackout period” so he himself admitted to being in love with the guide. You can’t be the SA victim as the aggressor and you certainly can’t be the victim when you have clear consent to the point of actually almost making a victim out of someone else because he didn’t always listen to his lover. And no, what he had doesn’t count as mental illness. He was fully able to make decisions for himself and therefore doesn’t fall under that category.
I'm so frustrated with this guide. His esper went through a traumatic event. He didn't just lose his memories, he had essentially a alter ego driving his body like he was a puppet. He had no way to consent to anything that happened him!
Then they brought him back by exposing him to the most traumatic thing they could think of.
Now he has to hear about what the person puppeting his body did for months while he was essentially unconscious.
It's going to take time to adjust to that. It's not something that you wake up and you "go oh well I guess I was in a relationship I'll just continue".
The fact that the guide and the comments haven't realized how tough this is for the esper and our only worried about the guide shows how twisted the yaoi community is. Just because someone is a top doesn't mean they're not a human and they don't deserve empathy.