
So basically Nine sleeps with Gwen as an escape but also because he likes him, while still being with Amon. It turns out that Amon knew and chose not to kill Gwen, but Nine is in his mind was cheating on Amon and was scared that Amon would find out.
He also spends a lot of time feeling guilty for being with them both, since if it was possible the both of them would like for Nine to only be with one of them. Personally i dont like cheating or ntr but it wasn't too bad. In the end they accept each other as necessary parts to keep Nine alive, but doesnt want to hear about the other.

Dang why was Amon so lenient with it? Is it because Nine likes Gwen?
Me personally…but I’m not like Amon either, holding one captive so. It’s not black and white huh, I agree. Because at the end of the day, it’s not like Nine wanted to be with Amon and has explicitly said so, right?
If so, then the relationship was forced upon. I wouldn’t really see it as cheating but it does feel icky.

I don’t remember much. Someone said: “When he was afraid Gwen would steal Amon's attention from him made me feel a bitter taste on my tounge.”
So MC thought Gwen was going to be liked by Amon? But then he slept with Gwen? MC is funny haha, lost me there.
I hope you continue to spoil. I would love any spoilers, I really don’t enjoy stories with “cheating” themes even if the relationship didn’t start off good.
I really like the story. Its very bittersweet and goes deep into what our main character is feeling. No tragedy ending.
More spoilers!
I feel like a lot of people are gonna dislike that Amon lives in the end and the Nine stays with him (and Gwen). If you like black and white stories this is not for you. But if you like complicated love (and hate) relationships this is a good story! And Nine takes a long time to accept(?) Amon and their potential future together (there is a timeskip after the end).
The story contains cheating-ish/ntr btw, and its not a true 3p, Amon amd Gwen never come to like each other, and no threesome happens. Gwen is also reincarnated, like the MC from I Can See Your Stats!, its apparently not super uncommon in this world. Love the lore and Im really looking forward to seeing other stories in this world.
Heres the link to the second part of the novel (which a link contains the first part of the novel, too lazy to put both)
https://kiwikiwikiwiki.wordpress.com/