I think in the first chapters he wasn’t his true self. The possession thing was more advanced, and while Lukas might have had full control of ML's body, ML was broken in spirit. He wasn’t in his right mind in that sense. Lukas made him kill all the important people in his life to make him unstable. So that's what ML was in the first chapters: unstable AND with lots of gaps in his memory (everytime he got posessed). The soft boy is his actual personality
That's because it's exactly who he is, but the trauma and whole personality switch completely destroyed him and made him unable to show any feelings.
i really don't want anymore of the fucked up thing inside of him lol he has never been someone who would hurt a fly (as evidenced by that maid who thought he was very kind until she got killed by his other side :( )
I love this but I feel like they really toned down that the ML is actually kinda crazy on his own without whatever is inside him like he was scary the first few chapters now he's a dumb soft boy most of the time who wouldn't hurt a fly do we see more of his naturally fucked up side?