why is this me, except for this part "and I refuse to say sorry if I don't mean it or really anything at all if I don't mean it. I'm literally always going to say what I'm feeling, fuck how you feel about it.", I want to be like that tbh, but I just hate starting arguments, like don't want to waste my time on those emotions/feelings
Lol, I don't think your bad.
I'm the same as you the only extra things is that I don't really care, so I just say whatever I know will please you and make you rely on me then when you actually need me I'm just gonna fuck you up
My mom always says it baɗ but I didn't start it and If I've moved on so will they eventually. So carry on the way you are not everyone is meant to be in your life. Those that don't mind your personality will always stay.
Pardon me but fuck your so called friend, live your life honey you only got one after all
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Topic: My mindset (?)
So boom, I just finished my homework right? And while I was doing it, I was remembering a conversation I had with an ex friend a while back.
Basically she said I was weird and insensitive with how I handle certain situations and really my whole life in general (which is why we don't talk now). And now that I'm thinking about it I've never really thought of how she came to that conclusion. So I thought I'd just Yap about it here and get it off my chest.
First, I don't like being hung up on things I know I can't change. For example, I'm poor? Well shit, guess I'm poor. My pants ripped and I didn't bring a spare? Okay, guess everyone knows what color my panties are. My five year situationship just ended? Not much I can do, he doesn't like me anymore.
Also I don't like letting myself get upset y'know? Not saying I don't cry and get mad it's just when I do, I don't let it last long. So if someone where to just insult me badly or I got into a bad argument, after about an hour I'm already letting it go and if they aren't ready to I just leave them alone until they get over it and I'm not going to go out of my way to make you feel better.
I also don't like acting like I'm this perfect person y'know? Like I'm probably the biggest hypocrite I know. Like yes, I just laughed at the kid falling and busting her lip and yes I just called this person a dumbass bitch even though they did nothing wrong to me and I think I'm better than a lot of people for no reason. I literally don't care, I get it's not the right thing to do or whatever but people do much worse than me.
and I refuse to say sorry if I don't mean it or really anything at all if I don't mean it. I'm literally always going to say what I'm feeling, fuck how you feel about it. And I guess that's probably what people don't like about me.
Just wanna know tho, am I really that bad lmao?
Yap session: Concluded.