Wait what?
ch7 when he says his 'memories become a blur' -- what he's describing is dissociation/disassociation and it happens to protect the mind from a traumatizing situation. like okay sure if someone is pushed past their limits sexually (which is still not cool) you could potentially sort of drift in and out and lose time
but the author made a deliberate choice to link being beaten/the stress of his father's debts with sex with ml
idk if they did it knowing what they were saying but still if you know the psychology behind that it's very very yikes
anyway i am also an enjoyer of choso's tiddies
basic ass lazy rape to love scenario with another poor traumatized mc
mc really said he dissociated through sex the way he did when the loan sharks came after him. like wow there's no coming back from that one.