My lil crush ( ranting?)

Chat, I like someone rn and this is the first person I have liked since last 4-5 years. But because of something I did we do not talk regularly. I mean we can talk if I text them but that would seem way too desperate and I don't thing they wants to talk to me. And I have read my frnds chat with that person and that was kinda weird . I mean not romantic but kind of wierd. Not the kind of talk u do with ur just frnds or for fun. Idk what to do