Yeah, I actually experienced something similar to him in my childhood in terms of his sexual abuse and the questions on whether you did anything and made the choices yourself never go away. Even wen you accept what happened. Even when you know you were a child or that the family member had power over you. Because deep down you want to convince yourself that maybe there was a way out. Even though it would kill you to know there was, it would also mean that maybe in an alternate reality, things could have been better.
Yeah I can relate too cause it happened to me too by someone I considered close like a family. Also, I'm so sorry that happened to you and I genuinely want you to know that you're so strong and amazing and I sincerely hope you get to completely heal from it one day.
My thoughts exactly
its a case of a victim becoming an abuser and even though I won't defend him for that, this was so incredibly hard to read, I feel really really bad for him, like what do you mean "was I asking for it?" of course you were not T_T it breaks my heart knowing all he wanted was those photos gone