hey, i cant say i fully relate to this, so im sure i wont be able to understand exactly what you're feeling, but im sorry you're going through this. nobody deserves to feel unsafe in their own house, due to the presence of their own parents. what ur mom is doing, and has been doing, isnt normal or okay but im sure u know that already. idk if anything i can say to help u feel better, but u can vent to me anytime u feel like if you're feeling overwhelmed. the most recent incident seems like a really dangerous one actually, i hope u know none of the blame lies on u, and that if ur mom is acting up like this u need to fight back for ur own sake. i hope u can get away from the whole situation too, idk how old u are but maybe u could move out when its time for college or when u get a job. im sorry this is happening to u, im sorry u had to resort to hurting urself because there are bad adults around u. again, please feel free to talk to me whenever u want. i hope things get better for u <3
How old and which country are you from? This is something you should talk about the correct authorities with.
I'm 15, and i'm too scared to tell adults bcuz most of them failed me
Well 15 is too young to just endure it - I highly recommend to somehow try getting over your fear and talk to the correct authorities. They are not just any adults, they are trained for those situations and should not fail your expectations.
But no one else can help you here or getting there. I wish you all the beste, but only you can change your situation by seeking the right help. Even tho it’s not easy.
Do u ever feel scared being in the same house as your parent? For me it's my mom. I feel scared being alone in the same house as her, since i was a kid...let's say our relationship is on and off— she's like a ticking time bomb, and ever since i became a teenager it hasn't gotten any better, for example every since i was a kid i felt small bcuz of her, or when she gets angry bcuz of something very small she would pull me by my hair and since i was a kid, i was small so she could pull me up by my hair and she would throw me across the room, and no one helped. Not even my other family members...they would just stare and watch— actually there was a time where they even joked about, and guess what, it just gave my mom an ego boost. Fast forward a recent one, is where we got into an argument about my sport (since i play taekwondo) she wouldn't let me compete in a sparring match which made me mad bcuz i really wanted to try it but they(my dad and her) still viewed me as this little girl who was scared to fight back, which pisses me off, so when we got home i didn't speak to her, fast forward she knocked on my door since i was still crying bcuz of it she obviously noticed it and we got into a heated argument, again. I used to SH and i picked up a habit where when i feel overwhelmed i would start scratching or hitting myself, and that's what i did, she saw that and got angry took a razor blade and pointed it at me saying "if you keep doing that i'll be the one cutting your arms" then she got closer and started waving it in-front of me which made me panic and just screamed at her.
Sorry ik this is long, but do u feel scared even in your own home? Bcuz your parents that were supposed to be caring and loving, are the reason why you're so afraid of them?