the way I spiritually felt this, I just can't understand or wrap my head around love or someone who will love me. Being envious for people who are capable of feeling and experiencing love is such a real feeling
sorry had to comment because this just struck my soul and heart. Glad to know its not just me!
I relate to you very heavily I never felt a romance attraction or love for another until just a few weeks before my 17th birthday. I met someone and they asked me out I didn’t feel anything for them but decided why not and I ended up being crazily in love with them for 5 years, dating for 4 of those years. The 5th year we were off and on until they left me, I haven’t felt a thing for anyone else since they left me and I still think about them.
You are so real for this but I'm also lowkey scared of it.
in my 20+ years of living, ive never been in a relationship nor fell in love with anyone, not even an unrequited one, so i kinda envy ppl who are capable of feeling so much for someone
just want to experience love that makes me want to scream and puke my guts out iykwim