
I'm with you on the possessive part. Actually, the rest too, but mostly the possessive part. I'm a sub and a masochist. I love it when my lover gets jealous and tells me that I can't go near certain people. I make a big deal about standing away from the people he distrusts if they speak to me and always make my refusals loud and clear enough for my lover to hear. I've even been "locked away" by a previous lover. I spent two weeks being pampered by, and pampering, him. It was like a honeymoon. The funny thing is, I'm an incredibly headstrong and independent woman, but for the right person, they get my special treatment. My submissiveness is a gift I give to only select people. For everyone else, I'll bulldoze over them without looking back. Submissive =/= weak.

I've never dated anyone before but for the longest time, I've knosn that I am also the type to devote myself to the right person. That's probably why I'm too scared to date anyone. Don't want my honest efforts to get wasted. Anyway, I too would want a passionate guy like Koun. His possessiveness is so adorable! ⁄(⁄ ⁄·⁄ω⁄·⁄ ⁄)⁄

No effort is wasted if you learn from mistakes. Even dating someone who isn't exactly the right fit can teach you precisely what you are looking for in a partner. It's okay to withhold "complete" devotion for a year, or even two, until you are convinced that the person deserves that kind of devotion from you. Trust your gut. If you have the slightest doubt, there is probably a good reason for it. If you never try, you never fail, BUT you also never succeed either. Mistakes and failures are part of the learning process. Learning who you are, what you want in a partner, who does and doesn't deserve the devotion you're offering. You'll never learn those important things if you never try and never make mistakes or fail. Young people have been convinced that mistakes and failure are bad things, but they really aren't. You need them.

I don’t know if they exist irl. There are bdsm relationships that can give a similar effect but I was never drawn to bdsm even though I’m sexually submissive at times and somewhat sexually masochistic (or it might have just been my self destructive nature expressing itself in sex.) Although I’m no longer interested in sexual relationships. Anyways in my experience, outside of the highly ritualized and rule laden bdsm world I’ve never seen extreme possessiveness not end up being abusive. Even if it’s just mental abuse. I say just but mental abuse can in some ways be as bad as physical. Mental abuse is harder to heal then a black eye. It takes away your sense of self. It’s hard to explain but you start to feel like the things that you liked about yourself are not actually positive or that they even exsisted in the first place. Anyways I love Kuon but he’s like an unicorn to me. A mythical creature that doesn’t exist outside of fiction.
I want one of possesive Aikawa too please I would feel so loved by him then.
And Nanao is seriously so seductive and sexy, how can he do that?! I'm so envious tbh. His big sis is amazing too, she's protecting Nanao wholeheartedly.(≧∀≦)