Okay I think a was a little too drastic with my opinion, I have changed some of them.
Besides that, I find this story utterly depressing, I love it, but it’s so sad watching Estelle drifting away, truth is she will never be Estelle again.
The fate of most of the characters in Estelle’s past is so doomed, the knights she fought alongside, with whom she laughed and spent so much time with, will probably never see her again, with a constant reminder that she is so far away living as a lady of the kingdom responsable for the death of their comrades and the fall of their nation. I’m happy they don’t resent her for that
Estelle reminds me of Tashi from challengers, I couldn’t understand why she wouldn’t at least try to practice with a sword again, but now I now why. If she can’t be the best then she won’t be at all. Like tashi who suffered an injury that meant that even if she practiced she will never be as good as she was before.
Realistically I think Estelle will forever miss herself and her past, I don’t doubt she will be happy with zed, but the life of a lady was never meant to be hers. I’m happy she has found something to life for, but I can’t help being sad for her. Every time I see a flashback of her it’s like watching a different person, the way she spoke, her wit, her confidence, it’s been all stored away in the back of her mind, she is now living by the rules of high society. Estelle the knight I will always love you and you’ll be remembered :(
I’m still reading (ch 112) and I like it, but something about the way the conflict and the war is being handled is leaving me with a weird feeling. It’s kinda strange to see a character like Estelle be presented as a fool who didn’t realize that the country she was protecting was corrupted and the the people ruling were evil.
Idk if I’m explaining myself correctly.
When I started reading I hoped she will pick up the sword again, or any weapon that will make her feel as powerful as she felt when she was a knight, I understand if her body was so weak and holding a sword might be difficult but they have showed us that she has physical strength, and plenty. It feels now that they are trying to convince the audience that she would have been better off never becoming a knight or learning how to fight. It makes me so sad.
I don’t like how they are talking about her in these last episodes, saying that if she really cared she should have betrayed her country, the country and the people she dedicated her whole life to, and that she killed innocent people that were accused of treason even tho there weren’t guilty, that she was just a dog, and then showing us how the people that gave up are thriving now. It’s vastly different from the treatment they gave zed when it was revealed that he was ordering the execution of children, why can’t he say no? Why can’t he refuse to follow orders?, when he is awarded with grace and understanding, they say Estelle should have known better and should have refused to follow her king.
A small alarm is going off in my brain and it seems like there is propaganda of some type going on. Idk if I’m exaggerating, probably. They can’t convince me that the war was not beneficial to the winners, that the losing kingdom was evil and that the people are far better off at the mercy of another emperor. “Poor citizens suffering from oppression of their rulers, they should just surrender to another kingdom that certainly does not have any ill intentions”
Also saying they were kind enough to not change the laws of inheritance already established there, what bullshit, how kind and generous.
It feels that they are trying to get any ideas of independence out of Estelle, that she shouldn’t be looking for revenge and should just accept the defeat, For the sake of her relationship with zed
I don’t think they will just make her forget it but it seems that way, I hope they prove me wrong.
Finally, I know it looks like I don’t really like the story but I love it, I’m just worried about where it’s headed.
Any comments criticizing my point of view are welcome, I’ll love to get different perspectives. :)