Doomed love

There’s something deeply sad about their relationship. The way they co-exist is so intimate in a melancholic way. It’s really indescribable, because they’re not yearning or desiring each other, but rather it’s like they’re seeking safety and security. That chapter where they just space out into at each other and never address it, because they don’t have to. There’s no sexual or romantic desire. It feels more like an affirmation, an acceptance of taking on each other’s burden which is so selfless of them bc they’re already going through their own shit.

Personally, my theory is that they separate unwillingly due to Ilwoo. He’s going to do something out of impulse and carelessness that’s going to result in him running away again.

The way Baekhee narrates this story feels like it’s centered around Ilwoo, even the title is just his name. It’s not that Baekhee sees that Ilwoo is worth more telling about than himself, no, because he’s reminiscing about him in his life. Because Ilwoo was the good part of his life worth telling even if they spent their time with each other painfully. Why he’s telling the story this way, idk