My parents hit me as a child and even though I am taller and bigger then them now, I still fear them... its like my brain doesn't understand that I am no longer in danger... that they cant hit me now and that I can defend myself, not like when I was younger...
I feel ya, my friend! That is indeed the case: an irrational fear is ingrained in us. We know it makes no sense to feel it, but somehow... Just can help it...
Right?? A user who victim blamed Yigon and called him stupid once stubbornly said that not all victims are timid like Yigon, not considering the fact that Yigon had no one he could rely on and protect him since he was a child
As much as i want to say & explain this is actually true and there's a psychological reasons behind that. I'm more concerned abt your condition rn, i just want to ask (no need to answer if you don't want to and feel uncomfortable abt it) but are you okay now? Are you in a safer place now?? I hope you're in a better environment & surrounded by ppl that actually caress abt you
I am so sorry u have to go through that, I truly am but thank u for proving my point, on how fear once its been built even if the abuser is not there the fear of KNOWING what could happen is still there and it's a terrible psychological trauma (I am truly sorry for what ur parents have done)
See this is what I was trying to get at too and seeing that person victim blame yigon was actually dissuading bc they are not considering what his mental state looks like
Idk why autocorrect wrote dissuading when I wrote pisstaking
So for the people that are saying why doesn't yigon get angry at his brother or why doesn't he stick up for himself against his brother instead of taekang, well the reason is what the brother did to yigon was brainwash and manipulate him, and also put fear into him since a very young age and due to that it has mentally fucked up yigon bc kids are more vulnerable to these types of emotions and as the brother said in this chapter fear that's been drilled into u is more powerful which is true bc that sort of trauma can last with u more than u can think, and as for why he crashed out on taekang is bc he no longer has a reason to be nice and try to be reasonable and act as if nothing ever happened, it is fair with after all the fucked up shit he did to yigon, and that is understandable, so yigon is not to blame here if he had been mentally unstable since a young age and the fact someone he trusted he thought he could lean on called him delusional yeah I too would crash tf out