The thing about first timeline Kloff's love is that it got dark and twisted because the bonding was not a proper nurtured one. It was filled with his own insecurities, jelousy, predujices, posessiveness, disappointment, obsession, hate, lust and his desire of revenge. All those feelings affected Aeroc's and caused his misery because he reacted to the bonding too.
Bonding or scenting, in this universe, can be dangerous and something to be afraid of if it fails to connect both individuals.
In the second timeline, Kloff's and the housekeeper talks about a tale about a pair of lovers whose bonding went wrong or something like that but Kloff was surprised because he thought that was just a myth. Like finding your one true mate but it helped him recall and understand why his emotions were unstable and got him excited, for bad or good, at the sight of Aeroc.
It's safe to say first timeline Kloff became mad cause of that but at the same time he was the source and victim of his own emotional turmoil. The bonding only amplified his frustrations and twisted personality. He became an agressor that used the murder of his spouse and un-born child to finally have a excuse to hold on to Aeroc, saying he wanted him to suffer, without recognizing his feellings and face the predujices of being both alphas... he hated him and loved him but he's a very complicated character.
If you were Aeroc and I am Kloff, would you believe me if I said 'I love you' on your death bed, or would you take that as a lie as you asked me to?
I wish the answer would be as direct and simple as one wanted but it's very complicated. In my opinion, when Aeroc asked that, it was a way to test Kloff and see if he finally 'forgave him'. If he actually said he loved him, even without being true or him believing it, for Aeroc it would mean he was forgiven because Kloff actually indulging him would mean a very huge deal.
But Kloff was incapable of doing that, he was not emotionally or physically ready for that. How could he when all that time he was only inflicting pain and taking his revenge on him. Again, Kloff's a very complicated character but he had feelings for Aeroc. Feelings that traveled across timeline in the form of bonding because that it's for life. The third timeline will explain more of that.
Raphiel will get his happy ending in second and third timelines. He even has his own novel with Linus. He must stay away from those twisted lovers tho
Believe me when I tell you this. I do actually understand all of the characters, even KlofFucking Bullshendyki. They're ALL WELL WRITTEN. I know what you're trying to explain to me and I can see that. In fact, it's fuckn clear, bright as day, but my eye's are blurred (with tears for Aeroc hahaah shit, I love that blind man)
Why am I stubborn? Because I fuckn can't believe that Kloff loved him in the first timeline. And what irks me more is that Rapiel was brushed off by Kloff in this timeline when in the whole first timeline revolved around him (fuck, bring me back my bucket of tears). I KNOW IT WAS ALREADY EXPLAINED that what he felt was fleeting more like our of necessity (even in the first timeline). We even saw his perspective (tch!).
With my eyes blurred (Kloff is shit until I have my tears back and Aeroc is fuckn at peace), I will continue to argue hahhha
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Now, back to my question, it's a yes or no answer. Will you say no or will you say yes? Give me one definite answer.
Ohhh I get now. Well, if you put it like that, yes, it is hard to believe he loved him or even Raphiel. FT. Kloff is such a messy man in that context. May that kind of love never find me hahaha
About your question, I'm an overthinker... but for the sake of the game I'll say I won't put you in any situation where you have to say something you don't believe in. Not even in my death bed, not for my ego and not after everything that happened. I won't ask you to said you loved me and if you said them because you thought I needed to hear them, me being Aeroc, I won't believe them because I would think I don't deserved them (me having FT. Aeroc's mentality). So I'll regretted it and at that point I don't want the last words I hear to be lies.
What would you do?
That's deep.
For me? I don't know, but given my personality. I would spat a curse that would last him not just 3 lifetime but a burden he'll carry for a fuckn eternity. BWAHAHAHAHAH
That's just me hahaha
But if I were Aeroc, I wouldn't believe him. Yea, what you said was true. What Aeroc was trying to see was that if Kloff could say those words, then that would mean he had forgiven him. What Aeroc went through was traumatizing, I can't fathom the height of the abyss he fell into. I can't even hate him in this timeline for falling in love with Kloff again. It's so messed up. He said he won't interfere this time and he would let his feelings go (honestly, this gave me thrill), but fuck, he swallowed each words. I saw him waver when the engagement fell, but in the end he gave in. I'm disappointed, but also happy at the same time. I can't explain it. I want him to seek vengeance and fuck everything. However, what can I do when the same person I hate is the very person that can make him happy? It's fucked up. I want him to be brave and man-up (like he isn't haha?, but I also want him to be at peace.
I really can't get mad, because I understand everything. I can't point fingers, because I know what happened. I can't ask death to take one, because the other would surely stop breathing. I can't blame the other, because I saw his past. I can only get frustrated by my own. I can only cry on my own. I can only curse. I can only watch. Fuck, the author was so good that I need to blame them. Hahaha
I refuse to believe he loved Aeroc in their first life. It traumatized me that no one will convince me that what de felt and did is because of love. Fuck, I cried in each episode. No shit consoled me, my mucus and tears mixed hahahahah I CANNOT. I FUCKN CANNOT.
Some might argue about what happened with Raphel and his child, but I won't budge. Fuck everything, just not Aeroc and his children. Even Raphel's presence in this season was brushed off after a failed engagement and he's gone.
What I saw tho in Bedyki (seme) is his familial love to his children, but that's all. That's all is there to him. Fuck his lust.