like it's the way suah just wants things to be like how they were when they were kids. he just wants to stay by juhyeok's side!!!! and he did nothing to be pushed away except present as an alpha - something completely out of his control - and juhyeok knows this better than anyone, that you don't get to choose what u present as, yet he STILL ruthlessly ripped their bond away, and abandoned suah from the jump. again i'm not saying the stalking and esp sa is right, but even before all that juhyeok was a TERRIBLE friend??? throwing the flowers in suah's face after ghosting him for who knows how long. like i get it presenting as an omega sucks, but it hurts knowing that if suah AT ALL had a choice, he would have chosen to be an omega bc he just wants juhyeok to love and protect him like he said he would!!!!! if he could give juhyeok his dom alpha gene HE LITERALLY WOULD. and it's DUMB that juhyeok only treasured him when he thought suah would be an omega and him an alpha. like thats a YOU problem bro
and to END bc ik some ppl gonna be stupid juhyeok is still a victim (just an unlikable one to me lmfao) and suah did still stalk and sa him and that was wrong. regardless, i sympathize w suah bc he was just a pup when he fell in love with juhyeok, who stuck to him like glue and was so kind and close to him. all he did was present as an alpha and that was enough for him to get shut out and thrown away bc of the mc's own personal projections and traumas. it's SAD
like juhyeok lowkey gave suah dysphoria and image issues bc suah being devastated that he presented as an alpha and crouching himself to be smaller bc he wanted to be desirable in juhyeok's eyes AND HE WAS JUST A BABY HERE STILL MIND U!!!! omg someone kill me
ngl suah saying all those promises “across the years” was when they were like 7 years old. they were children and it was a promise they made before they knew about how the world worked, i can’t really fault suah for not keeping a promise he made when he was so young. i get what you’re saying tho, they’re really cute, i honestly think a part of it is on juhyeok to move on from their childhood promises. they’re adults now, he can’t really hold him to the promises he made as a child
Juhyeok was not just a terrible but completely garbage friend after presenting, I won’t defend any of that. But honestly I don’t think Juhyeok treasured Suah solely just because he thought Suah would present as an omega? But that’s not the main thing I wanted to comment on so I won’t dive too much into this.
I feel like what Suah failed to do was give Juhyeok space to be honest. Juhyeok could not comprehend neither accept his secondary gender and that’s when it all spiralled down to a shit show. From there on Juhyeok really just wanted to get the fk away from Suah whereas Suah’s desperation drove him to do crazy things. Of course Suah’s actions also stem from his desire to protect Juhyeok and his love for Juhyeok but it went out of control.
But of course there’s also the scenario that if Suah were to give Juhyeok space nothing would’ve changed because Juhyeok has his ego and insecurities in the way.. I feel like I’ve been replying to a lot of the comments bashing Juhyeok so much I fail to convey my main point which is that both sides are sad and painful to watch. Yes Juhyeok was rubbish to Suah when they were young but after growing up Suah used the wrong methods to project Juhyeok.
Also, both sides have their own traumas/insecurities and whatever else you wanna name. If Juhyeok’s response to the “omega” title is to shut Suah out then what can we say? Suah served as constant reminder that Juhyeok is an “omega”, something he absolutely didn’t want, never imagined to be. Gentle reminder that Juhyeok was also a baby at this time.
This sht became sooo damn long but to summaries basically both sides are sad as fk and they’re honestly better off never meeting each other you know ;-; Suah should’ve met a hot and buff as fk
Omega who would love to be showered with his affection and Juhyeok… Well he needs to accept his secondary gender and work on his insecurities before we even discuss anything after that
i think u have the names confused, suah = alpha and juhyeok = omega!! i get u but they also weren't 7, more like until they were preteens/early teens?? ofc we don't know for sure but i would say from the earliest flashback when juhyeok saved suah from the bullies and carried him home they were around 7-9, and during the window/ice cream scene where suah tries to crouch and shrink himself anywhere from 11-13. anyway, even if they weren't adults yet, that's still 4+ years of suah's life, integral years, where he saw juhyeok as his only light in the world as a vulnerable and scared baby who was literally bullied until he pissed himself. ofc he was going to latch on like his life depended on it.
you're completely right though, a part of it is on suah to move on - and he was doing pretty well at it i.e. he left juhyeok alone for weeks. it's just hard to move on when he's suddenly being used for sex now.....idk man it's all mess but rest assured i DO feel bad for juhyeok, i just think he handled it terribly and i feel infinitely more bad for suah bc he was shut out and abandoned over a factor that he had no control over. ofc the way he reacted in response to being shut out wasn't right, but just seeing how self aware suah was from the start that juhyeok wanted him to be an omega and was devastated when he presented as an alpha and began to grow taller, not bc he himself had a problem w it but bc he knew juhyeok would not be happy - just devastating to me.
no bc i agree w basically everything u said - my heart just goes out to suah more bc he truly did nothing to deserve the way juhyeok treated and reacted to him/them presenting. and i think juhyeok is narrow minded for being ok w suah being an omega, i.e. suah going through all the hardships omegas face - but not himself. i just don't think he's a good person. ofc suah also has issues i.e. stalking and sa are super wrong, can't change that, esp the sa. but the stalking i think stems from abandonment trauma and i just feel more broken for what suah went through. i think i said in my og comment that it's super sad for both sides, and i agree they shouldn't belong together like i would hope suah would move on to an omega that treats him better LOL and juhyeok obv wants to focus on himself and his career, but well this is a bl manhwa sigh so we're in for a rollercoaster
oh sorry yeah i just finished reading it last night i got the names mixed up, my bad.
like i understand where suah is coming from since he basically grew up with juhyeok and he was his protector, but i do still think he’s looking at it from his childhood perspective. he covered juhyeok in pheromones without his permission, he still shows up every day even tho he told him to leave him alone, and even if all of this happened when they were 11-12, that was still 10 years ago. it must’ve been really tough for suah to have to deal with losing someone so close to him, but even still, holding juhyeok to promises he made when he was basically prebuscent (i’m assuming secondary genders come around during puberty) is just a little silly to me.
i think we agree on the same things, i just feel a little less bad for suah since he had the opportunity to leave several times and he still decided to stay.
no i get it! you're right 10 years ish later u would hope suah would have moved on/healed, but i also get the trauma bonding aspect and confusion/difficulty doing so when the reason you were originally shut out, again, was bc of secondary gender prejudice and something completely out of your control. as far as we know, juhyeok also never sat down w suah and explained things rationally, he sort of just ghosted him and then threw flowers in his face when he crashed out after presenting. more than the childhood promise, i think a lot of it also stems from a lack of communication that isn't just "i don't like you anymore, stay away from me." u would think that even just as a friend, juhyeok would care enough to explain. but i also get that he has gender dysphoria and is going through persona trauma himself. i also don't know if juhyeok truly realizes how destructive and hurtful it is to keep suah around for sex (although as u said, partly suah's fault bc he's the one who started the scenting).
but yeah i def think we agree, i'm just more heartbroken for suah (and trying to do so without excusing his wrongdoings) but i hope they both get to heal!!! and personally don't want them to end up together bc of everything LOL but hey it's a bl so.....i imagine we will be having headaches in future chapters
juhyeok is not a good person ngl like i understand his personal trauma not wanting to present as an omega but telling suah MULTIPLE TIMES over the years esp when they were babies that he would marry and mate suah and always be there to protect him, hammering that idea in and taking this poor baby under his wing.......and then completely abandoning not just his promised mate but arguably his BEST FRIEND simply bc that friend presented as an alpha???? just. diabolical. idk what the word for him is bc its not homophobic but god is he narrow minded
like did all that time they spent together mean nothing??? he only liked suah bc he thought he was gonna be a pretty omega??? ik this also overlaps w his own gender dysphoria but cmon man......it's crazy that just bc suah's an alpha, it erased YEARS of memories. he just feels so mfing shallow
ofc what suah did in response isn't right like that's stalking and sa 100% but just think abt how trauma bonded he is to juhyeok who constantly saved and protected him after he was assaulted and bullied and promised they would be mates :( look at the lengths suah was willing to go just to protect the flower crown juhyeok made for him!!!!! he latched onto juhyeok from the time they were just pups and his love is so pure idc i can't hate him....he was just a baby ): LIKE JUST SEEING HOW DISTRAUGHT AND HEARTBROKEN suah was bc he presented as a dom alpha???? he KNEW juhyeok was narrow minded as hell and wouldn't want him if he wasn't an omega. that's just idk it's so?? sad???
like suah's love is at least TRUE......he loves juhyeok in all forms and just wants to be what juhyeok wants, but juhyeok only saw a future for them if they were pigeonholed into certain gender roles and thats just so fcked up idk. seeing suah crouch and try to make himself smaller bc he didnt want juhyeok to see that he was taller, bc he just wanted juhyeok to be by his side and keep protecting him......and he knew juhyeok wouldn't if he was alpha.....like ow??? ow.
and then seeing the mc use him for sex and kick him to the curb right after he's done using him oml i'm just sad.......ik juhyeok will prob wake up and develop feelings when he accepts his second gender but atp i just feel so sad for both....