Trauma doesn't uniformly break people the same way. Haruki is broken, and he recognizes he shouldn't care about his abuser, but he can't control how he feels. However, he is in the hospital for a suicide attempt, which makes it more likely than his last hospital visit that he'll get professional help. But it seems the nurses don't understand why he's near catatonic, and they haven't transferred him to another facility for care, so maybe that still won't happen.
That's just stockholm syndrom . If my brother ever did something like that to me to hell with what he feels and if he's just my step bro like'em all the more reason to hate him. What pisses me off is that haruki was a stable person for these past years why did he have to go through all that because of that spoiled kid who doesn't know how to give up . What he feels is not even love it's a child's obsession. Loving someone is backing off when you feel like you're destroying them in the ugliest way . Bullshit! haruki needs to wake up and be with that senpai at least he won't hurt him as much.
The fuck why does haruki still care wether hikaru is suffeeing or even dropping dead after all what he did!? Yeah tbh everything was that psycho's fault suffering is not even enough . Rott in hell brat !