What?

he's been in an abusive relationship for 5 years. Doesn't make his behavior acceptable, but it does make it easier to understand what his headspace is like right now. He's never been properly loved or valued--after years of that, the idea of change, of good things, becomes terrible. Abuse survivors are trained to ruin their best things. Because they're afraid, and they know they don't deserve them.

5 years? Where did it say that? Wasn't the ex only being an asshole for a few months prior to the start of the story?

Also, he's never been abused... Just neglected. He says himself that he never expected the ex to rape him. The ex hadn't been as invested in the relationship as he was and it made him sad, hardly abuse.

I'm also starting to hate Mitsuru. Although I do believe that the ex definitely did abuse Mitsuru from the way they interact I can't stand that he's going back to his ex.

I didn't expect him to go to his boyfriend either (because he's so self hating) but damn at least don't jump back into the fire, have some self preservation or at the very least be honest to yourself that maybe meeting up with his old ex he had feelings for wasn't a good idea.

I'm especially mad because the only reason he's in this position is because of his lack of forethought. And that even when he's being offered what he wants he's not willing to look past his own insecurities to see what's happening to someone he's claiming to love so much. He should at least try (╯°Д °)╯╧╧

See, from what i got from the story, the ex treated him normally other than that he didn't put enough effort into the relationship. It seemed like Mitsuru was the way he was because he was in love with someone who didn't love him back. The guy agreed to date him, but mitsuru is so depressed because despite them being together he's feeling heartbreak.

Ohh yea I can see that being a possibility too. But something about the drama that the dudes causing over all of this is so weird and obsessive that I feel like something about the guy is off but I could just be trying to vilify the ex hehe ╮(￣▽￣)╭

Yeah, he definitely becomes obsessive, though it seemed to me that that is because he thoughtMitsuru was just going to be okay with the whole "hey i'm married now" thing, but he wasn't and then he thought that if he got a divorce mitsuru would come back to him, but he didn't and finally he found out mitsuru is dating another man even though he just shit all over his own life (had to pay lots of money in the divorce, parents are pissed off at him) to try and get mitsuru back. I feel bad for mitsuru, but i really think he dug his own hole to get stuck in when he decided to just leave his ex without telling him that they're breaking up and then when he ignored all of his ex's calls despite the ex having no idea what's going on which was basically the equivalent of him leaving his ex to slowly build up to the point of blowing up, which resulted in the "rape" scene... I just hate mitsuru now, just decided.

Ughh, I just wonder when the new update is coming I just wanna see the end
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Yeah, i'm excited to see how it ends too~ ヾ(☆▽☆)

I guess I assumed their relationship was abusive because the two parts of it we get to see directly (the begining and the breakup) involve abuse.

Respectfully I disagree--I believe much of the ex's behavior qualifies as abuse. (also abuse & neglect often go hand in hand, neglect is a common form of abuse). And rape is not the only form of abuse. i've had serious abusers in my life who never sexually abused me, abusers who i can't imagine ever sexually assaulting me. But they are abusers nonetheless--their abuse just took different forms.

I'm looking forward to hating them all

I must have forgotten the abuse in the beginning, i'll have to look back. All i remember about their relationship at the start is Mitsuru wanting to be with his ex more and crying about it to Shougo. That's just loneliness, not abuse, he is being neglected as a lover. Neglect and abuse CAN go hand in hand, but the two don't HAVE to have anything to do with each other. If it seemed like i was implying that rape and sexual abuse are the only forms of abuse, that wasn't my intention, what i meant was that what Mitsuru was dealing with involving the ex towards the beginning of the story wasn't abuse, it was loneliness and only progressed to abuse when the ex went crazy. The ex didn't seem to treat him wrong in their relationship up until the breakup, or at least i didn't see any reason to think he did. Did Mitsuru mention anything like that or was there a flashback? Being an asshole to and abusing your lover are two different things. The ex just wasn't being attentive. If i were to fall in love with you over the course of this conversation and you quit responding (with no ill will, you don't really know how much i feel for you) to go read other manga, would you be abusing me because i miss you so much?