same here. one of my firsts, but i kind of dislike the start of it. Maybe around the house fire is where i really really like the story line. and his brother's too. also had violence at the start. But i love Morinaga's brother's character. He was his inside view to how senpai felt the entire time.
I love this and I think it was one of my first YAOIs ever but the violence in the relationship still makes me feels bad