Please help me!!!!!

I read a really weird manga about a guy(uke) the keeps cleaning his neighbors(seme) apartment and the seme keeps raping the uke in the garbage. The uke keeps coming back to clean the apartment and keeps getting raped. The uke keeps coming back to get raped because he likes the seme's smile as the seme chokes him don't sex. I also remember that the uke caught the seme smiling at some kittens and thought he (seme) was going to kill the kittens.

I tried looking it up myself but I couldn't find it so I'm asking for help. Please and thank you. (=・ω・=)