I think the same as u coz reality sucks
Even if manga is the only thing that keeps you going, or let that be anything else from your favorite candy to your favorite tv show, then it's okay because that's a good enough reason. Keep on holding to that. Go on even for another day but please keep on trying.
I was sort of like that too at one point, thinking what is the use of living, and why should anyone care if I die? But I don't regret the decision to keep living, even in my crappy annoying environment. Keep holding on, and keep trying.
My life isn't exactly horrible, but sometimes I just can't take it. Just dragging myself through the day seems impossible sometimes, even though I do it anyways as if on autopilot. My only real relief is manga and it's scaring me how much I'm coming to depend on it to feel anything at all. I know I'm pushing away my friends and family a bit for it, but is that so bad when it's the only thing making me feel at least a little okay? I know it's not the greatest way to think, but aside from it I'm starting not to care about anything else.