I dont know but once I sort of went into a day dream for nearly 2 hours ... it was like sleeping with open eyes... In that dream I came to the Cafe and I was Yohans friend, the story was that we have met as I was a psychologist who was given to him after he became deaf to help him and we became friend ... that day was a regular check up but as we went upstairs and started speaking I started crying through out our talk. Yohan hugged me and supported me and I said "I am sorry, I am meant to help you, I am your therapist after all" but then Yohan said in sign language that that does not matter because he is my friend.
Then I became conscious again I could not stop thinking about it. I even started considering psychology at university since then ( I am 17 and in a year I should be going to uni but I am not sure what to do yet... and I like psychology and read about stuff quite a bit)

I just want to hug yohan so bad