the most horrifying aspect is i/we thought Maya had changed and matured being with Nemu bu...

the most horrifying aspect is i/we thought Maya had changed and matured being with Nemu but NO his emotionally manipulative/abuser behavior present in the first two or so volumes was just DORMANT and sprang to life the MOMENT he felt any sort of blame or accusation towards himself. all his terrible behavior in the first two volumes raping Nemu, emotionally manipulating him, "graciously" forgiving him when Nemu had to beg to get him back. I feel so triggered because bits and pieces of it floated through the past volumes but we all hoped they were now happy and growing together. Maya not saying I love you - which bothered me but now it's clear it's because he would lose some sense of control in the relationship as the "losing party" if he was vulnerable with his feelings, he was more at ease not saying it because he retained the emotional control in their relationship. him going out and getting gigs/socializing in a materialistic circle where people fawned over him and stroked his ego, fanning the flames feeding his ego and keeping him satisfied emotionally with his life. I always ALWAYS had a sense of foreboding EVERYTIME this series update with trepidation HOPING that nothing would happen, that Maya wouldn't cheat, etc, and trying to ignore all the red flags. it's only a matter of time, before he lies again, before he cheats, before he starts living this lavish lifestyle with Ruka up with all the socialites and disregards Nemu, takes him for granted and maybe loses interest and breaks his heart. I feel like I was duped and I'm now seeing the light. It will take VOLUMES of Maya proving he's changed before I can forgive him. I really can't right now. I wish I could BE in this story and yell all of this at Maya and tell Nemu so he can open his eyes and see what's really going on. They're headed for destruction we've been watching this story slowing moving towards this inevitable car crash and it's horrifying and truly pains my heart I feel like this is happening to me. The only thing I want right now is for them to break up and be independent and for Maya to realize his wrongs and I mean IN FULL like someone needs to set him straight. Nemu needs a life where he finds people that love him and treat him with respect and if they end up together again it will only be when Maya has TRULY CHANGED.