rant

I'm glad that Dojin realizes that what he is doing is wrong. He knows that he's making Hyesung suffer and admits that the only reason he is doing so because he feels satisfaction from seeing him pregnant and relying on him all the time.

Everybody complains that Hye is selfish and materialistic - which might be the case - but Dojin is also selfish. Dojin wants Hyesung even if Hyesung does not want him back. Dojin is so selfish that he is using the baby to tie Hye to him and keep him. I know Dojin loves the baby and he wants to be a good father, but he is still using it to keep Hyesung with him. If it weren't Hye the one pregnant with his child but some random omega he did not like, I doubt he would have went to this extent. Dojin was never planning to honour their contract. There's no way in hell he will let Hye leave after giving birth. We can see that in chapter 22 where he says "he still has time" to win over Hye. And in chapter 28 when he says he still will not give up. Dojin is so desperate, he's so scared of losing Hye that he went to such extreme measures by making a 20-sth poor high-school drop-out jobless omega, who he knew for less than a month, keep a baby that the omega obviously is not mature enough to look after. Hye is childish, immature and fails to evaluate the situations he is forced into. He is so naive that he almost got himself human trafficked! For God's sake, how could this guy become a mom?! Dojin knew all of that, but still insisted on Hye having the baby. Actually Hye wanting to abort the baby at first was the most rational thing he could come up with. But since he is so naive, he settled for a contract that he did not think through enough. Now that his pregnancy became sort of a 'reality' to him, and now that he knows how hard and painful it's going to be, he is beyond depressed and really suffering. I feel so bad for him. He did not plan this far ahead and now reality is hitting him like a brick, and Dojin wanting to keep him so bad allowed for this to happen and that makes him an accomplice to Hye's suffering.

I don't really hate Dojin either, even though I can see his selfishness. I like his caring side and I like his raw feelings. And there's nothing wrong with Dojin loving hye and wanting to be with him. It's never wrong to love someone. However, it is wrong to keep pushing oneself onto somebody who doesn't want you back, especially through manipulative means. Dojin never, not even once, told Hye how he feels. Hye can't read minds. Also, Hye is not very bright and can't properly read the situation. He will not figure out on his own how Dojin feels if Dojin does not tell him. From Hye's perspective, Dojin made him an omega, fucked him against his will, made him pregnant and now is the reason he is suffering. Hye is basically taking 'his revenge' on Dojin by using him for his money, a behavior that is enabled by Dojin himself. Dojin used his money to keep Hye with him as well, buying him stuff whenever he is upset so he doesn't leave. The way this relationship started was toxic and a good conversation is needed to clear things up. I want them to end up together but I want them to both willingly love each other and decide to be together. But things are so unequal now, because the one paying the highest price is Hyesung. He's the one suffering, he's the one whose body and mind are going through so many changes, changes he has zero control over. It's actually scary. Hye feels like everything he planned for his life went to shit. He feels like he has no control over his life and not even control over his own body. And even through all of this, he keeps up a strong and happy front. Honestly, he is amazing. I wouldn't be able to deal with it the way he does.

On the bright side (SPOILER HERE FOR CHAPTERS 29 - 30), in chapter 30 they have a fucking proper conversation. Finally, finally they talk things out and Hye realizes that it was not Dojin's fault that he's an omega, because he was one all along, regardless of Dojin and Dojin apologizes properly for making things harder on Hye, and promises him that he will protect him from his dick of a father. In here Hye starts to trust Dojin more and makes the first move and kisses him. Why couldn't that happen from the start? Hye is a decent person, he treats his friends well. The only person throughout this manga that he treated badly was Dojin, only because he had this negative conception about who Dojin really is. What they needed from the start was to communicate properly. But I'm happy with chapter 30. Hopefully after all this angst, we get some flufff. I want some fluffy happy moments. I can't stand seeing Hye crying anymore! ╥﹏╥ Anyway sorry for the long-ass comment, I got carried away (￣∇￣")