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He is just realizing that he has more feelings for Yohan than he thought. That they have sex and enjoy each others company, but are only 'fuck-buddies'. That idea is making him feel "empty" because now he is starting to crave a real relationship with love and he doesn't think Yohan feels that way. And as yaoichic said; he would miss him if he wasn't in his life anymore, so he doesn't want to give him up. But Perlita-chan your thought of the 'present' is correct too, because like I said; he is just realizing that he is falling for him :)
“Empty”?????? What does that mean???? That last sentence confused me or I must’ve read it wrong but I’ve reread like 10x and I don’t completely understand it. Or maybe a mistranslation???? Why does he feel empty? Isn’t it the opposite because he’s caught feels for Yohan?????? SOMEONE EXPLAIN