
I think he did get into it knowing the outcome, but the whole tie you up and blindfold you cuz jealous and then double penetrate you cuz jealous prob changed his track? I mean just even justifying why someone did that to you, it's easier to feel better about it if there was some positive reason. That way he doesn't have to focus on the pain, and I'm sure there was a lot of pain. DG is on the hopelessly optimistic side. haha

yeah its super irrational but also super normal because it's that painful to handle the kind of pain DG would have to face otherwise. It's not easy looking back at your first time having sex and going "it was with someone who I was super into, but they treated me like a sex sleeve. I wish I'd realized faster."
I feel so bad for child and it's p. immature for mid twenties but that kinda thing was def me back in high school and I have tons of friends who had similar first experiences. All smarter now pow pow pow
The mc is being unreasonable and frankly, a bit annoying. The one condition Alex had since the beginning was nothing more than sex, and he never led the mc on either. I dont feel anger towards alex or anything bc alex is in the right. Mc got into this knowing what the outcome would be and he has no right to hope for anything more or think he has any say in this matter except for leaving the relationship.
Im a but cold hearted that way i guess