Ch 49 translation:

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T/N: this is basically jiwon's backstory and flashback to him as a child and growing up with strict and indifferent parents and how it led up to him and his ex.


Narration: (through jiwon's perspective)
-I wonder why love is so scary-
-Where did it go wrong? (As in when did his fear of love start)-


Jiwon as a child at a piano recital playing
He takes a bow everyone is clapping but his parents who just look indifferent

Jiwon: "...!" Troubled by this fact and Also nervous from performing.

Piano Teacher: "Your recital was received well. You did well!"

Jiwon: "Thank you sir."

Teacher: *notices jihoon(brother)* *walks over to him and the parents* "JI HOON WAS THE BEST!"

Jiwon: "...!"

Teacher: "This time you even got 1st place! No one can beat you!" As he praises jihoon in front of their parents.
(T/N: he was giving jiwon a pity pat when he congrajulated him but was in awe when congratulating jihoon)

Jihoon: It's all thanks to you teacher.

Jiwon: *tries to interject to the parents* "Mom...dad..."

*parents loom over Jiwon bothered* (T/N: they already look like they play some massive favoritism)

Mom:"Jiwon, You made two mistakes during your performance."
"With kind that talent you will never take 1st place."
"Looks like you'll need more lessons."

Jiwon: "yeah..." *looking embarrassed and ashamed*

*they walk off leaving Jiwon to trail behind them*

Jiwon thinking:I worked hard though... *looking frustrated and sad*

*he chucks his congratulatory bouquet to the ground in frustration*


Narration:(through jiwon's perspective) --To be recognized by your elite parents...
Only 1st place was acceptable.--

*scene switch to his brother holding a trophy being praised and shown affection*
-- whatever it was, my talented brother was loved... --
*Jiwon shown looking at a congrajulatory certificate and then ripping it up*
--...i was not--

*montage of scenes of Jiwon working hard in various things, studying, working out, piano etc*

--I wanted to do better than my brother somehow...--
--...it was impossible--
*scene switch to Jiwon out of breath and on the ground trailing behind his brother who is crossing the finish line*

*zooms in to Jiwon just staring into the distance in the direction of where his brother was. Has Arthur meme fist*
--I had to find another way--


*scene switch to outdoors at a school. Jiwon and team playing soccer*
*"classmates cheering"*
"Hwatinggggg!!!"

*jiwon has the ball, he's running to the goal, he shoots and GOAAAAALLLLLLL!!!!*

Team: Woot! Go Jiwon! Yay! *crowds him and semi dogpiles* "Well done!!"

*other classmates cheering from the bleachers* *Jiwon Looks back to the bleachers taken aback a bit.* "...!"

*Jiwon smiles as he's shown affection and pats* (T/N: Damn. Feels)

Some random classmate: oh this is your first school ever? Awesome!

*continues montage of him doing pullups now*
PE teacher: stop! Awesome! Number 1!

*continues montage to dean speaking in his office*
Dean: you're doing great!

(T/N:so basically this is a whole montage of him getting praised at school. Think he was homeschooled or something before or too young)

*scene where jiwon is being crowded and surrounded by people and being all popular*
--I thought it would be natural for my parents to recognize me if i was being recognized elsewhere

But it Wasn't me you were smiling to or dealing with.

But it was good to feel interested in somewhat.--

*switch scene to mom and some other boogiee elite drinking tea and chatting*
Random elite 1: oh my! jihoon won the science competition. How great for you!
I wish I had two handsome and smart boys!

Mom: *sigh* "do not say that. The second one is not a spirit" (T/N: i mean you all get it basically mom is saying jiwon ain't shit...bitch)

Elite 1: Why? He is also doing extremely well at school.

Mom: "Student chairman. That's a position anyone can get.
When i was that age I was doing well internationally. The people in my family were wonderful.
I cannot speak of him anymore because I am so embarrassed of his achievements.
Unlike jihoon, his achievements are blunt and spontaneous. Not consistent.
Also his appearance. Have you seen a family member with curly hair before??
I don't even know who he looks like or takes after"

Elite 1: *nervous* haha... he's still young but 2 years younger.

Mom:"Jihoon was much different that him when younger.
I want jiwon to at least partially be like jihoon."

*it is revealed that Jiwon was eavesdropping (hidden partial cover) the whole time in secret to this conversation*

*new day*
*Jiwon straightened his hair*
Jihoon (brother) notices Jiwon

Jihoon: Oh! Jiwon! What's up with the hair?

Jiwon: huh?

Jihoon: C'mon~ are you okay? Cheer up!
*ruffles his hair*

Mom comes in: "jihoon. Are you going out?"

Jihoon: "Yeah! going to the library."

Mom:"....!" "Jiwon. Your hair.."
"You look like your brother now"

Jihoon: "I know right! :D" (T/N: his statement is innocent lol)

Jiwon: "...!"

*jiwon finally smiles after finally being noticed by his mom*

Narration
--i have not been able to be recognized until i put on a new mask.
I was approved with it on.
At first it felt good, like floating on warm water... *scene of him floating on warm water. Lol. Also has his hand on his heart. Peaceful scene*

But...

*scene where his heart begins to darken. represents emptiness. Void.*

It was just emptiness. A void.

*scene transitions to him sinking into dark water and black fog from his heart. His mask is also falling off at the same time revealing a sad and empty expression.*

Is there anyone who can love ME?

*scene change to the scene we all know of now. Lol. When he comes home from school and sees his older brother and his friend aka the douche ex. Lol*

Jiwon: I'm home--....?

Jihoon: *getting ready* "oh hey! I'm going out now"
Jihoon: Ah! Say hello. This is my friend Hui min (Hwimin. Here's the hangul: 휘민이)
*BAM FACE REVEAL! He's giving a soft smirk. Now we know he's important. More so than Jiwon's brother. He's faceless XD*

Jiwon: Oh, hello. *looking in awe. (T/N: Damn love at first sight.)


Narration:
--On that day is when my first love began.-- *on black screen*

TBC


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Sorry guys for the poor translation. This was a lengthy chapter and more difficult to translate. I tried my best. ⁄(⁄ ⁄·⁄ω⁄·⁄ ⁄)⁄

And thank you for your patience. I work overnights and was sleeping when the new chapter came out XD

Jiwon's parents are mad strict and wack. I understand where Jiwon is coming from but still not an excuse to treat others badly. How he was treated from his ex he's doing to DG. DG may never love again! LOL
Also the next chapter is obviously going to be about him and his ex so we may not see DG for a bit. Maybe just jiwon thinking about DG.
Can't wait for the next chapters!