Thanks for explaining in such great detail! Ur so smart :3
I'm not so much smart as I am experienced. I am a defiant masochist too and I got that way exactly like the character in this book. I was abused as a young child. Though, admittedly, I never sought affection from my abuser nor did I harbor any for them. I did, however, have a tendency to provoke their wrath out of spite. Despite our size difference, I would provoke them in order to have an excuse to hurt them back. If they hurt me, I was justified in my retaliation. My abuser passed away when I was about 15. I certainly did not miss them, but I did find myself missing the interaction. I found myself looking for fights with anyone I could antagonize. Friends, boyfriends, girlfriends, strangers. And just like this character was noticed by the vampire, I was noticed by a man who had a fetish for BDSM. He trained me as a submissive and showed me a world where I was always in control of what happened to me. I have been involved in BDSM for over 30 years now. Without BDSM, I'd have just been another angry victim of abuse. BDSM, and the things I learned there, made me a survivor instead. He and it saved me.
Wow. I was really about to cry reading your story. Thank you for sharing it. And I’m glad you were able to find solace and control through BDSM. I’m super glad I got to hear your background since it shows that we all come from different pasts and experiences! It’s amazing!!! I hope we all continue to grow and enjoy the pleasures of every aspect of life from now on (●'◡'●)ﾉ
Beautifully said. Thank you, I wish the same for you.
Just how many readers realized that the kid was an extreme masochist who would antagonize his father into beating him. His father likely beat him long before he became a masochist though and the father is also the very reason the kid became a masochist. If the only attention he received from his father was when he was being beaten, he would begin to find pleasure in the attention and eventually pleasure in the pain. The kid miscalculated when he antagonized the father too far and was stabbed. As for the vampire, he recognizes the masochistic tendencies in the kid, which is why the kid tries repeatedly to kill him. The kid knows it is impossible to kill the vampire, but he still antagonizes the vampire's wrath in order to gain the vampire's attention and the punishment he desires so much. The kid was programmed to be this way by the actions of his father from a young age. I doubt the kid really feels angry at the loss of his father, since the vampire took over the punishment and seemed to do a much better job at it. But it does make for a good excuse to antagonize the vampire.
In BDSM the kid would be considered a "brat" or a defiant masochist. This is someone who will incite and antagonize their sadist in order to receive punishment. The punishment is what the defiant masochist desires greatly. The more they fight back and antagonize, the harsher the punishment and this is precisely what the defiant masochist wants.