Well I just want to confirm something. As I understood it, the uke was denying the sex wit...

Well I just want to confirm something. As I understood it, the uke was denying the sex with all his might but it was just to prevent himself from wanting more from the seme. Though I know that the seme shouldn't have pushed for it, I don't think that the rape is what the uke is mulling over. I assume he was contemplating of his wish to have a first and last sex and be reborn as someone who is not gay but because of the seme he got confused and scared of not being satisfied after one taste. He was confused of his own desires, then all of a sudden he was attacked by Emoto, and then disowned by his dad. Anyone wouldn't want to deal with anything after that, explaining why he brushed off the seme.

This would've been better if it were not compressed in such short chapters but I understand that mangakas struggle with publication matters and stuff. So sad this happens to stories with great potential to be better. I hope you all don't blame the author, I can sense she/he didn't mean ill in this compared to other manga with rape in it (even others justifying it).