My heart hurts for both of them - I feel like both of them are so insecure in their own way - Maya is afraid of losing Nemu, while Nemu is afraid of losing Maya to somebody. Honestly, I feel like if it wasn't for Ruka being a piece of selfish shit, everything would have been fine. Nemu would have been happy for Maya that he finally found basically a purpose in life and sooner or later they would definitely learn to balance things out. With the insecurity, however, it took a completely different turn. This arc is definitely my worst fear - choosing between your career or your loved one... while money isn't everything, I've grown to understand that life without it won't be easy either and if you manage to find a work you love that allows you to live comfortably, will you leave it? But then if you leave your loved one to it, will you come to hate it? But if you leave your work then you will become a leech and they will get sick of you sooner or later. Then doing a job you hate would put you under extreme stress and it would strain your relationship as well and it could lead to an end due to possible future "I have this job only because you made me give up what I loved!" What then? I have too many questions and no answers.
I strayed a bit. In short, I wish they could communicate more... talk things through in a calm manner and find a common ground. I don't blame Nemu for feeling insecure, who wouldn't feel that way when people around rub salt in your raw wounds and poke where it hurts the most? I also don't blame Maya for being caught up in work, because he finally found something he is passionate about and is taking up responsibility of being an adult. I don't know how they will sort things out, but just do it fast, I don't think my heart can handle this arc for too long...
Also, yeah, so I don't know why I torture myself so much that I went and re-read the last few chapters in order to understand the situation better so I became a sobbing mess.
My heart hurts for both of them - I feel like both of them are so insecure in their own way - Maya is afraid of losing Nemu, while Nemu is afraid of losing Maya to somebody. Honestly, I feel like if it wasn't for Ruka being a piece of selfish shit, everything would have been fine. Nemu would have been happy for Maya that he finally found basically a purpose in life and sooner or later they would definitely learn to balance things out. With the insecurity, however, it took a completely different turn. This arc is definitely my worst fear - choosing between your career or your loved one... while money isn't everything, I've grown to understand that life without it won't be easy either and if you manage to find a work you love that allows you to live comfortably, will you leave it? But then if you leave your loved one to it, will you come to hate it? But if you leave your work then you will become a leech and they will get sick of you sooner or later. Then doing a job you hate would put you under extreme stress and it would strain your relationship as well and it could lead to an end due to possible future "I have this job only because you made me give up what I loved!" What then? I have too many questions and no answers.
I strayed a bit. In short, I wish they could communicate more... talk things through in a calm manner and find a common ground. I don't blame Nemu for feeling insecure, who wouldn't feel that way when people around rub salt in your raw wounds and poke where it hurts the most? I also don't blame Maya for being caught up in work, because he finally found something he is passionate about and is taking up responsibility of being an adult. I don't know how they will sort things out, but just do it fast, I don't think my heart can handle this arc for too long...
Also, yeah, so I don't know why I torture myself so much that I went and re-read the last few chapters in order to understand the situation better so I became a sobbing mess.