Don't Continue the Cycle

Her thoughts were similar to mine in an abusive household. You look for anyone strong enough to hold you above water, even for a moment, even if they might just drown you the next. Then you start fantasizing making a real family yourself. Not realizing you'd only drag yourself farther down. I was lucky to find someone who showed me those thoughts weren't good, and to wait for stability (emotional, financial, etc). I feel bad for people who don't or didn't have someone to pull them into their boat and take them to shore. Also, if your partner/ parent hits you once, they will hit you again. Don't think of the future, think of right now, and get out of that situation.