Yes it speaks to a much more beautiful dark side of me. This is one way I am free to indulge in something that speaks to me.
Thanks yes I do fan girl quite hard lol
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My dude, saaaaaame. Spent my first 14 years of my life being abused in various ways. Before I was out of elementary school, I had been abused by 3 different people, and experienced sexual, physical, and emotional abuse, plus neglect.
I can tell ya, though, as cliché as it is to say, you will get better. Things get better. The human mind is a wonderful, powerful thing.
And people don't break. We're flexible, like skyscrapers; we're meant to survive harsh winds.
I still fall into the patterns you're describing, partially because my weird lizard brain is constantly acting as if everyone is a threat, but... I've met people that I don't feel that way around.
You'll find those people, too. (๑•ㅂ•)و✧
I believe in you!
Thank you so much for sharing your story. It helps to know I'm not alone in this. (▰˘◡˘▰ and you're right, we are ment to survive so I'm pulling for you(๑•ㅂ•)و✧ fighting!
I am not use to being treated kindly I had a child hood that no one should have. Sex, It's like a business situation even when I was with someone who loves me. I pretend it didn't hurt when things did. I always acted like I didn't care. I always wanted someone to treat me kindly it I was afraid because I would have to come to terms with the fact that I was broken and worth somebody's love and time. I don't kiss them on the lips. I just realized that was me....Sorry for that, I don't have many ppl to talk to.