Guys since i already saw this coming from a miles away ( that wasn't the only thing coming...

upvoted by mistake but bro; the man is a rapist u should probs feel lots of hate for him lol

okay, let me give a proper explanation. At the time i was reading the rape scene, i had already started thinking about what would happen later on with the story, and the seme just gave me the feeling that he would become a better person, i know that this way of thinking is a bit too optimistic, especially since the title of this is 'Down and dirty' AND also because he committed a serious crime of sexual violation, i know a lot of people will feel hatred or worse toward these scenes but my reaction just reflects who i am as a person, that does not mean that i accept sexual violence and enjoy it, what i am trying to say is, that before i had even read the rape scene i had already pictured the development and everything else, i pictured the rape scene before even getting to it, but i had already pictured the seme's development into a good man ( tho i shouldn't think this way because everyone will hate you for seeing the better in someone who is a "rapist", it's quoted because this also relates to other types) I am not the type to hold a grudge against anyone, i can feel hate and dislike but i have been surrounded with people who tell me to learn to forgive and move forward, since 'that day' i have learnt that things are done for a reason and that you should always forgive others no matter what they have done or said.

Also people will react differently and in my case i did not react how you would want me to, that's because i am not you, if you are angry or hurt because of me being different then i don't know what to do for you.

A lot of people will definitely hate me for that, and question "How can you forgive him?" but i have found my peace, and with him in mind there is nothing to question, fear, or hate. I will also apologise to those who had read my first comment because it was not appropriate for use, i am sincerely sorry. I do hope that this comment will help you understand my side, but i also do not expect some people to understand this and that is alright with me, I just want you all to be happy at the end of your day, that is all.

I’m not sure what others think but I’m saying this because it’s deeply concerning that you think (outside fiction bc it’s about you) that rape should be something that’s forgiven?
Yes, mistakes can often be forgiven and you can move forward. But rape is no mistake. It’s a crime. It’s creates trauma. You’ll never be the same, so forgiving a person who’s done something that can’t be undone is very unrealistic because it’ll come back to haunt you for the rest of your life (that’s different from person to person but I’m considering majority). That’s all. I respect you, but I can’t help but think it’s incredibly concerning.

I know this is how people or everyone would normally react towards rape and all sorts of crimes that have been committed, but because of my beliefs I am brought up to forgive anyone and to learn to understand that things do happen for a certain reason, it is because of this that I am able to forgive the actions or words of those who you normally shouldn't think would be forgiven. I grew up learning that people should be forgiven no matter what because people can change and realise later on that what they did was wrong, someone will always be there to change and or stop them and I truly believe that even if he was to rape and then committe murder he is still a child of God and therefore shall be forgiven. ( This is probably a bit too much to be saying for a manga but this is how I would react to anything including in real life ) I really don't want to bring up my beliefs for this, but it is my only way of explaining why I react differently than others. I have once thought about 'How can you forgive such a disgusting person?' And etc but we are all humans, since the very beginning we were born to sin and there is nothing wrong with that. Yes rape is a horrible thing to even think that something this cruel exists, and even worse the person committing that crime, but you would always have to ask ' Why did they turn out that way?" Children who are born from a rapist, would you consider them innocent? Children who grew up living with their father who is a rapist, are they innocent? Children who knew nothing better but to follow in their own fathers steps, are they innocent? People are caused to do something for a reason, they don't do something just because they think it's fun. Trauma is a huge problem that follows after being raped, but if you want to let go and be finished with the trauma the only way to do that is to forgive the person who did it to you, if you are not able to do that you will live with this trauma for the rest of your life. For me that is something I definitely don't want because we only live once and I want to live a meaningful and happy life, I don't have time to feel hopeless or traumatised due to something that has occurred to me even if it was rape because when the day death arrives at my door I am going to leave this world with regret. When you forgive something you are able to let go and your mind is finally free, you can move forward and find peace in your life. I will always look forward because deep down I know that God has a plan for me and I shall accept it.
I don't know if you believe in the bible and I don't expect you to be able to understand this. I know forgiving something like this is really freaking hard but trust me at the end of the day once you have forgiven that person, you are free to fly.