She love her family, you know. She know that her family use all that money yet didn't say anything. She didn't see properly things around her. If I were her, I feel responsibility.
You said she is weak? A girl who get up again and try to live her life even though she don't have family, try to be a nun, live and stay in front of the person, no, an ex-lover who kill her is not strong? That's weird. If I'm at her place, I might break. Especially when everytime I saw my ex-lover who I love dearly in previous life.
I understand that she turned a blind eye to her family's evil doings however she died in a horrible way as an atonement. She was granted another life yet she is still living exactly like before in regret and can't move on. She is the one torturing herself by being near him, she is the one who is starving herself, she is the one living in the shadow of her old life, she hasn't moved on and this life is wasted on her.
I don't mind seeing people go through shit because it makes them stronger and if someone is granted another life, you'd think they'd try to find another meaning in their lives and do things differently. She isn't doing that which is my point.
She looks like a starved slave and she is no different from a walking corpse.
As for the thing with her lover, as I said before, I can't understand it. If you know someone never loved you and was using you, you should no longer feel love for him, at least that's how I see it. He isn't evil since he wanted to improve people's conditions but he wronged her and she acts like he saved her...
Hmmm? I don't any part where she acts like he saved her. All I could see is her pain smiling face. Btw, yup, I dislike that lord. I think the mc just want to die or live her life peacefully, quite. From her previous life, she herself ask the lord to kill her. If he really love her, he should have said that all his love is not a lie. The mc might ask to die but deep down, all she want is for the lord to tell her that all his love is not lie.
I think I understand your point. She don't have to live miserable. Even if the lord lied to her, she should get up again and forget that lord(even if it's hard). If she is shock, she has a plenty of time in her second life to sort things out yet she didn't. Yup, I don't understand what's in her mind.
Thank you for your explanation. This made me decide to drop this and never read it. I hoped for a story about moving on and being empowered but got a story about being dragged to the past and being a willing victim. It does not suit my taste at all especially since she ends up with him and accepts the past.
I hope you enjoy your reading but this isn't for me
I think the point was he did really love her but he couldn’t bring himself to tell her about her family and about who he really was. The guilt of basically betraying her made him feel guilty to say the least and he probably felt like he couldn’t deny her request. He was also the leader and somewhere deep down inside he probs sky knew that everyone in the family had to die to end the cycle of hatred.
I don't understand why she is torturing herself and considering him to be some savior. It's her family that did all the bad things and not her and even if she did, she atoned for it with death. This is another life yet she is doing this whole martyr bullshit again.
I hate him for ruining her and acting like an almighty hero and I despise her for her weak character and for putting herself down. The story was okay until her death but this shit took a turn for the worst after that. Instead of living a better life she is starving herself ? Because her family in a past life were evil ?
Fuck this nonsensical shit!!