You are amazing do your best
Hey me too! My mom was really sick for a long time and I had to watch my two brothers who are now 12 and 15. it is kinda weird being in my 20's and being able to give 'mom' advise to my friends starting their families, right? I feel kinda old when I talk about my brothers. lol it was hard being 14 and trying to talk to friends about my shit little brothers and housework. But now i have a great come back to when people ask me when I'm having kids. "Nah, been there. Done that. I've raised some don't really feel like doing it again."
I feel hayato, man. I had to basically raise three brothers myself, they're now 16 going 17, 14, and 8 (I am the oldest and the only girl). I find myself talking about them a lot though (most of the time unconsciously). So I really understand Hayato's situation and struggle, with the whole aunty vibe. Except my little brothers are little shits 24/7