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I’m looking for a yaoi manga, it’s about a uke who works in a theater group as the fashion designer. I think and he lust after the owner son who is also a designer and when he got turned on he went into the ocean to calm his self down started masturbating. But the guy who he was listing after saw his clothes folded on the beach and though he was trying to kill his self so he tried to save him. (Sorry about not punctuations)